Day 2 RANT

Didn't think I'd make it, did you? Thought I'd forget to blog today, huh? Well you were wrong! Wrong, I say. hahahahahaha!!!!!!!! (maniacal laughter). Sorry but it's been a rough week and I'm a little, yes just a little, edgy.

I realize part of my problem with this blog is that it is connected to a business, so I've been waring with myself over the reality of who I am vs. the reality of who I need to be in the business world which is currently largely defined by large corporations - by their business culture - which is then filtered on down like fashion from NY runways to Walmart. Walmart's where we're at in this country, Walmart's and Exxons and frankly I would shoot myself before I'd work at either of those companies. I don't shop at them because I don't like them or respect them. I think you know why. If you don't - check these out:

http://www.longviewinstitute.org/projects/moral/walmart
http://walmartwatch.com/press/releases/wal_mart_china_cozy_multi_billion_dollar_bedfellows/
http://washouts.blogspot.com/2007/07/wal-mart-is-bad-for-america.html
http://www.alternet.org/environment/23528

Point is I feel as an owner of a company, even if it is one as small as blog4reel, I'm required to be polite, objective, and Rated G, even though I quite enjoy cussing like a dirty pirate. (Let me know what you think by voting at the top of this page on "To Cuss or Not to Cuss.") I was raised in that culture - white bread middle-class ethics. I guess I think it's right cause that's all I've known. But that's never been who I really am. I've been struggling a lot lately over who I am in my life in general. I know I don't always live the way I most would like to be. Just like most of us I guess, I have my insecurities. We all have a desire to be accepted but I think we are all driven to be the amazing unique individuals we are as well and finding the balance between them is quite a challenge.

But I fully realize and embraced today that it's my choice. Just like everything in life is a choice even when it doesn't feel that way. Even if you don't believe the circumstance you are in was created (at least in part) by you, you must concede that you are 100% responsible for your reaction to any particular situation.

I am ready to change, to make conscious choices in my life, to be more who I want to be. The irony is if i don't I'm gonna end up a hypocrite just like my father - not practicing what I preach. If I believe in the power of NOW, the Law of Attraction, the oneness, the wholeness, the connection between every living being, every creature, every tree, even those crazy raspberry ants that have been all over the news lately. If I believe in our eternalness, if I believe that religion and science are two sides of the same coin and those two sides are idiots for not recognizing that already because it's so obvious that somewhere in between what both of them believe is a commonality. It's clear to me and to my closest friends but it seems the general public is steeped in chaos, fear and separation. All of it feels fake, like it's made of plastic, plastic that sits in the belly of an albatross (that beautiful endangered animal) slowly decomposing over centuries of time.

If I don't start living & practicing what I preach, saying what I believe, then I am already that albatross....

At the end of the day all we can do is love and forgive ourselves and others - all of them. Yes, every single last one. Even the guy who just cut your arse off in traffic.

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