Eruptions and Interruptions!

I apologize for the chasm of time since my last post. No excuse really besides a minor meltdown, a few new ticks, etc. I guess since I had no good news to report I decided not to report at all. This is what happened: Blog4Reel's web designer, a good friend of mine for the last 10 years, quit on us. The website is 95% done but because of personal circumstances (goddess bless him!) he had to pull the plug. So I've been spending the past month or so trying to find a new web designer who can code in ASP. When I first put out the feelers to friends and associates, trying to find a replacement, most people thought I was saying ASAP, not ASP and told me they'd "get right on it!" That didn't work out since very few people I know knew someone with such a talent so I had to resort to googling for a new webdesigner while simultaneously biting off all my fingernails down to the nubs (I may need prosthetics, but that's another blog). So anyway, good news is: We have a new webdesigner and we love him! His name is Tony and he owns his own web design company, J Web Solutions in Helotes, TX. It's always a little nerve-wracking bringing someone new into the mix but I think he'll fit right in. He's a nice balance to the sometimes chaotic creativity that goes on around here. I don't think anyone's reading this yet, but just in case you are, thanks so much for your patience. The new launch date is set for January 1st. But I've stopped holding my breath. I'm learning to live life without expectations. It's either that or burst myriad blood vessels, which really is not a very attractive look.

It's been a strange time for me altogether. I feel very much in a transition period and we all know transitions aren't fun and they aren't pretty. It's like making taffy. You have to stretch the hell out of it before it turns into something yummy. So that's where I'm at.. in the middle of being "stretched" - mentally, physically, spiritually. I keep thinking about the minutia of humanity. I watch these shows on tv about Super Volcanoes and such that could blow any day (we have one in Yellowstone Park, btw -http://www.solcomhouse.com/yellowstone.htm). It's so enormous it could cause an ice age. We could get hit by a meteorite. There's no reason we couldn't - it happens to planets/moons all the time. But it just feels so random, so orderless. And I start wondering what's the point of any of this if it ALL could be gone tomorrow - our homes, our art, our family/friends, our SUVs (well, this would be ok), our lives. I mean the reality is that this planet has a timeline. The sun has an expiration date. It won't happen in our life time, sure, but it will happen. (http://www.nytimes.com/2006/02/14/science/14comm.html) It just gives all of it a little more perspective. Reminds me that if I'm not really enJOYing my life then I'm doing myself a disservice. If nothing lasts then joy in the moment is all that really matters - being at peace, centered, just generally feeling ok about things, no matter what's going on. Haven't quite achieved this yet but it's a goal.

For those of you you haven't seen FIGHT CLUB in a while. I highly recommend a reviewing. Awesome flick. Man when he says, "You are not your fu**ing Khaki's!" I want to stand up and cheer. Not that I've really been wearing khaki's lately but it's the sentiment that counts. We are not our THINGS. I don't even know if many of us can even relate to what that means. To know yourself completely apart from what you wear, how you style your hair, the car you drive, the restaurants you eat at, the friends you have, the dog you own, the nail-polish you have on, the vacation spots, the brands, the phone, the computer - all of it. They're just things. They're not you, they're not me. I am ME. You are YOU. Do you know who that really is? Just a question I've been pondering...