Changes

Had a phone meeting with winner, Tom, today about how we are going to translate his blog into film. We have some ideas but as there are so many possibilities we're not even close to a decision yet. However, I am leaning towards doing a series of webisodes - probably about 5 minutes each, that capture the essence of his blogs. What do you think?

Also, I decided that there are so many other aspects of my life I want to talk about that I really don't want to do here, so I have started a new blog. If you're inclined, check it out: http://sutapants.blogspot.com/ On it, I hope to keep everyone updated on my new feature film project, Ekstasis, my new novel, The Rain Queen, I am about to publish through Amazon.com, the Chocolate Mojo movie, and the occasional rant.

goodnight!

WINNERS!

So am very excited we finally announced our big winner - Tom Trevino, of the Chocolate Mojo Blog!!! Congrats to Tom! He is a phenomenal writer and we are extremely happy he is wanting to be involved with the production of the film, although we don't know yet in which direction that will go. So keep an eye out for updates and all that.

It's been a crazy couple of months and obviously I haven't blogged in a while. I know the delay in announcing was kind of a pain in the butt, but to be quite honest the economic "crisis" has caught up with us, and we're working on regaining our footing. We will move forward but probably in baby steps for the time being. Hopefully we will be out of this slump shortly. :::fingers & toes crossed::: I guess only time will tell. More to say, certainly, but it's late. Will try to write again later this week.

Cheers everybody (especially Tom!)

Fun w/ Light

Last week, Josh and a friend of ours went out and messed around with Light Graffiti. I just absolutely love it! This is my favorite out of all the ones we did. Do you see the flower on the bottom.. that's me, well my hand, holding the flower. I want to do a huge light landscape of all sorts of objects, ala Cy Twombly, where you keep finding new objects in all the chaos. I love it, maybe because that's what life feels like to me.

Luminaria

Aside from hitting dead stop traffic and having to maneuver my way around downtown to park at the alamodome then hoof it up and down 3 flights of stairs, under a freeway and over a fence to get to my screening of "Ennis Does Southtown," the Luminaria Arts Walk in San Antonio was awesome! A lot of people made it out and no audio problems during the screening, whoohoo!. The cool lighting and the music and art was really exceptional and it makes me very proud of my fellow San Antonians. Where are all these people hiding the rest of the year?! I want to know.

A couple more weeks left until we find out who wins the 1st Season of the Blog4Reel Competition... can't wait! After that, we'll be working on the site (behind the scenes) to add the new features.

Life has been hectic these last few weeks. My car broke down on the freeway and after having it looked at twice and towed by a neanderthal who threatened to impound my car cause I wouldn't give him money that I didn't even owe him, discovered my car was unrevivable for less than 2 grand (Btw, never use Aaron's Towing). WTF?! So now I have a new Scion XB and I love it! It's nice to not hear the whistle of the wind (I had a convertible) and it's nice to feel safe and secure on the road too. So all good things in the end, eh?

Inspiration for the Uninspired

Enough of this depressing bulsh, I think it's time for another deep thought by Jack Handey. I still haven't come up with a good one on my own, and I thought it would be easy!

"I think a good movie would be about a guy who's a brain scientist, but he gets hit in the head and it damages the part of the brain that makes you want to study the brain."

thoughts

How is it possible that people can get so screwed up that they stop seeing, they stop seeking, they stop believing there is relief, much less hope, much less joy?

To me, my whole life, even when I was half dreaming half awake I always knew there was something better. I always knew there was something beautiful that existed, even when I couldn’t see it. Something simple, like a sunset, or the smell of jasmine on the wind would remind me. Nature always speaks the truth.

How does someone stay in an abusive relationship for years upon years upon years and convince themselves that’s their obligation to god? What kind of god wants someone to live in constant fear? How do you tell this person that there’s another way? That they don’t have to suffer to be good? And what kind of fu**ed up culture creates thousands, maybe million, of people who believe exactly that same way?

Well not me.

But I can’t share if you won’t listen.

And you can’t learn if you don’t hear.

But eventually the burden will be too great to bear.

And that is a good thing.

The day you can’t keep your eyes shut any longer.
I hope I'm there to see it and Celebrate!

Ant on an Apple, Part II

Rushing & Worrying is completely pointless, I realized clearly tonight, because there's nowhere to be but here. So take your time and enjoy it, make the best out of it, expect the best out of it. Trust yourself and the thing you're in. It couldn't hurt just to try it, right? See if it works?

And might as well enjoy it cause this is the only moment exactly like this one. Enjoy who you are, what you've learned, what you dreamed so far; and enjoy the one's you're with, the ones you taught, the ones you learned from, even if you hated them at the time.

I talked with my favorite auntie on the phone over the weekend. She sent me a condolence card about gpa passing and honestly it made me feel more emotion than I did when hearing gpa died. Maybe something's wrong with me or maybe I really don't believe in death anymore or maybe it just feels much better to feel the love from my aunt.

We talked about the economic situation, I mean I guess that's what all republicans and probably most democrats are talking about right now. I suppose it's hard not to worry as you watch your retirement slip away. Maybe I've lived without healthcare (insurance) too long, I'm used to the risk. I live on the edge. :) But I also think that although things are crazy fubared at the moment, I really believe things are gonna be okay, maybe better than okay, maybe really great - a place with clean air and calorie-less Twinkies made out of spelt. I guess it couldn't hurt to hope.